I wish my stomach had more room to expand. :/

So my dad took me and Tyler to Denny's for breakfast today.

I got about 60% through my food, and Ashe decided it was time to reposition into some crazy position that somehow restricted my stomach expansion even more than usual, so I couldn't finish my food even though I wanted to :(

She also stayed in that positon until about 5 minutes after we left Denny's. Figures.

But on the good side, she's been WAAAY active lately, and it's super neat. :) You can feel more than half the time from the outside, and you can tell the difference between kicks and wiggles :)

Also, if you're pregnant, never ever ever ever ever EVERRRR make the mistake of googling '22 week fetus' instead of '22 week ultrasound'. They had a picture of a 22 week old aborted fetus, and omfg. It's scarring and I cried :(
Now, I still am in favor of abortion, but if someones idiot ass makes it to 22 weeks and then decides to get an abortion, there's something FUCKING WRONG WITH THEM. There is NO possible way in hell they didn't have at least an idea they were pregnant.
I hate people. lol


But blahh.
I think it's funny how my opinion on people has COMPLETELY changed. People I could not STAND to even remotely think about before, I actually enjoy talking to. And my "bffl's" drive me INSANE.

Crazy shit.

Also, I just got an amazing foot rub from Tyler.
<333

Wow!

Coolest picture ever. I don't really care if it is photoshopped.

Oh my god, shoes.

I have found that I am absolutely in love with baby shoes. Boots, to be specific. But I REALLY like this idea for baby shoes, even though it's a design for big people shoes, I think I might make some for Ashe and myself when I get settled. Maybe not in black, but you know. I think some elephant shoes made using the same concept would be ADOREABLE. Aghhh!

I feel really creative lately. Not sure why. I've been looking up DIY baby stuff but I haven't really found much that's simple enough for me to hand sew, seeing as I don't have a sewing machine, so if anyone finds something, let me know!


But back on the topic of baby shoes, I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up with about 50 pairs of Ugg-style boots for Ashe. I have pink ones already, and the one's I'm currently jonesing after are these ones on the left. They're sparkly, and only like $12.50 at Old Navy :D

I'm not bothering buying newborn sized shoes though. Newborns don't walk or crawl. Seems somewhat pointless to have a bunch of shoes for them. Hah. I also love the ones on the right for winter. So next winter she'll probably be crawling around (idk?) so they might be perfect! And only like $16.50 at babyGap (although with that little material, they couldn't cost more than like $5 to make...)


But yeah. Swine flu or whateverthefuck I have that's making me feel like I'm dying sucks. So I'll prolly be blogging alot.

Ta dah!

Pringles & Ultrasounds & Moving & Names

I like Pringles. Best chips out there if I do say so myself.

Anyways.

I had my "20 week" ultrasound a couple weeks ago. I will not lie, it was the single most amazing experience of my life. :)
First and foremost, the first thing that popped up on the screen was VAGINA. Which was a HUGE shock for me. I was half expecting a HUGE penis to be taking over the screen with flashing neon signs that said 'Ha ha! You don't get a girl!' It still seems almost odd that she isn't a boy. I was SO sure that she was, I would have almost bet my life on it haha.
But the tech was super excited that I was skinny and that baby cooperated, so she blasted through all the measurements and then let us watch her for a couple minutes since we finished so fast. That's when I cried a little bit, when I saw her wiggling around on the screen and sucking her thumb.
I'm not really too emotional when it comes to things like that, but wow. I think anyone who DOESN'T cry has something terribly wrong with them. Not really, but ya know.

All the pics are on my myspace. I'm too lazy to repost them all onto here.


Moving again. lol this time, it's for sure. We'll be out of this apartment by the 5th. Almost half our stuff is back at my dad's already.
Yeah, stfu. I don't like it. I hate Klamath sooo much, as you all know. But it's for the best since I've become practically retarded and like to trip down stairs, fall over, and electrocute myself. And apparently, that isn't good for baby. lol so since Tyler could leave for basic pretty much whenever the goddamn air force gets money to send him to his physical (lol even the military is broke! yay!) I have to go stay with someone, and my dad won't charge me much rent.
I want to make one thing VERY clear;
I AM NOT GOING TO HAVE MY BABY IN KLAMATH FALLS.
Unless I dialate to 10cm in 3 hours, (woah) or my doctor says I have to have my baby there because I'll kill it or me if I don't, then I'm getting driven to Bend as soon as my water breaks / other labor crap. I'll also be up here for all my doctors appointments and whatnot.
I just really do not trust any medical "professional" in Klamtucky lol

Also, Ashe Makenzie is pretty much for sure.
Yay!
Not sure on the spelling of Mackenzie though.

Flutter :)

Well, last night about this time, I felt fetus move for the first time.

I was sitting right here at Ty's mummy's computer, browsing pregnancy websites cause I'm lame, and I felt a little nudge. I figured it was gas, and sat for a minute before I realised something:

For only about the second time in 2 months, I didn't have gas.

It took me a second to figure out what it was. I figured I was digesting something, but that wasn't quite the right place for a gurgle. Nor did it feel like a gurgle.

So I sat for a second thinking maybe I'd imagined my tummy gurgling, when all of a sudden.

IT WAS BABY.

I realised that just in time too, because about a split second after that, I felt a weird kind of...flutter.

Well, less of a flutter than a really weak thrash, but flutter is a more attractive word. :)

So of course, I run into the living room and inform Tyler of;

'Oh my god, it moved! Give me your hand!' and put it on my belly, which is kinda pointless, because not only did fetus not move, but he couldn't have felt it anyways. But meh! I don't care.

Fetus has been rather active since. Little itty bitty thrashes and nudges. Especially when I sit like I'm sitting now, with horrid posture and leaning back slightly. It tickles horribly. But in the happy way :)

anyways.

Here's fetus and I if we were cartoon illustrations! Yay!

Yap. Neat, huh! It looks like a person. :D

Annnd, what's going on with both me and fetus and the explanation as to why I'm EXTRA retarded lately :p

http://www.babyzone.com/pregnancy/trimesters/week/article/15th-week-pregnancy

That's my favorite website for baby stuff right now. SOOO much info! It's crazy!

And I have to go to the doctor on the 27th for a test to see if I need an amniocentesis or not . Woot.

So yeah. More later <3

Puppy.

I hate our freaking dog.
He chewed ALL of my underwear. AGAIN. He CLIMBED into the hamper, dug through all the other clothes, and pulled out ALL OF THE UNDIES and ATE them.

OMG.

That caused a breakdown haha. Seeing as I have NO money whatsoever and any undies I end up buying won't fit in a month or so, and I'm super hormonal, so yeah.
I guess I do love the dog though. But really, he needs some training classes or something. We're nothing but consistent with him, but it doesn't work. Nothing works. He still shits and pisses in the house about 8 times out of 10, even though we take him outside about every 2 hours. He will WAIT until we come back inside to take a crap. It's so fucking annoying, I think if he doesn't figure it out by the end of the month, he'll have to be finding a new home. Bah.
:(

BUTANYWAYS.

I MADE IT THROUGH MY FIRST TRIMESTER!!! YAY!!!

I feel better already haha. Probably just because my chance of a miscarriage is like <4%
Much better than like the 30% it was before lol

http://www.babyzone.com/pregnancy/trimesters/week/article/13th-week-pregnancy

Is what's going on with me right now, if anyone cares. Haha, I'm just too lazy to type it out.
I have a doctor appointment on Tuesday, and hopefully my cist will have dissolved or at least started to. It hurts still, and it's super annoying. D:
But yep.

I don't have internet as of right now.
I'm on a Clearwire trial, cause they weren't sure if we could get service at our house. We do, but it sucks. :p and the only other provider here is Qwest, and they are SUPER spendy. So I guess we shall see where my internet situation goes! Woo!

Not moving!

Well, the title pretty much says it.

Honestly, I'd rather be alone with hardly any friends here in Bend than with the drama starting idiots in Kfalls.
I don't understand why alot of you people are unhappy with the fact I'm not moving back. That's EXTREMELY selfish. That town is a shit hole. If you were really my friends, you'd be HAPPY for me for not having to move back. But you aren't. I don't get it. But oh well. I'm done with most of my old 'friends' back in Klamath, seeing as how most of them only call when they want to complain or gossip about dumb stuff.

I've been in more contact with girls I hated at one point, and people that weren't exactly my BFFs than I have been with my 'best friends'.
The sad part is, is I like the girls I couldn't FUCKING STAND more 90% of the time, because they don't give me usless drama bullshit that I don't need.


Whatever.

fkjsfklj

Well I went to the doctor today. I've been having A LOT of pain on the right side of my baby area, and it was making me really nervous, so when I got there the lady that took my heart rate and stuff was like 'Wat.'

But anyways, my doctor person decided to give me an ultrasound, just to make sure, and it turns out I just have a cist on my ovary, but my baby is perfect! I got a cute little picture, but when I came home (after getting some panda express. om nom nom!) I tried to scan it, but when we turned the scanner on, it sparked, made a weird noise, then started smoking.
So me and Ty were like O_O


So I just took a picture of the picture. Shitty picture quality, but meh.
And yes, this is the best picture I could get. Stfu.

He/she looks like a baby! A peanut sized baby, but still a baby! A HUGE change from 3 weeks ago!
In the real picture, you can see his/her little arms and hands, and facial profile. (for lack of a better word?)


And here's my belly :p My FattyMcFatFat-ness.
Rofl. I've gained a whopping 2 pounds though! Hah!

And my asshole roomate finally moved out today. YAY!!!!

So in other words, today has been a good day.

Moving.

Yep I'm going to be moving back to Klamath for a couple months (2-4 prolly) I'm really irritated about having to do that, but I just can't take care of this huge house without Ty being here. And I hate being by myself, so I'm just gonna go stay at my dad's house while Ty is in basic training/tech school/wtf ever.

I will NOT have my baby in Klamath though. No way no how. I'm not letting some hillbilly deliver my baby and honestly, I kind of want to see who actually comes to see my baby while I'm in the hospital. Hah. AS IF.
Family, yeah, prolly. And Karen.
But really, I don't expect more than that. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if any of my Klamath friends NEVER saw my baby if I didn't bring it to town. Depressing, but true. Seeing as how many people have come to visit us the whole time we've been here. Nick and Karen, and Lana and Wayne. WOW. GG Klamath friends haha.

I'm not really mad about it or anything, so don't make excuses and apologize. It's pretty amusing to me actually.

Also our roomate has to be out in 12 hours! I dont think he think's we're serious though. Seeing as he hasn't packed ANYTHING. Lol. His problem, I'll call the cops at 12:01 tomorrow :p

And our kitty Bianca is missing :(
She has been for like 2 1/2 weeks. I really miss her cause she was MY kitty.

But yeah, I've been ALOT sicker this week.
And everything hurts.
:(
I have a little tiny pooch now too. I'll post pictures next week prolly.

Also if anyone wants a cat, let me know :)

Ultrasounds.

Well, I had my ulstrasound last week. I'm only 6 weeks along. Well. 7 now. Lamesauce.
I want to be more preggers. This is just terrible. All I do is sleep eat and get sick. It's like, I know I'm pregnant, but it doesn't feel like it. I can't wait to feel the little one move and kick and punch. I don't know.


I almost cried when I heard the heartbeat. 122 BPM.


Other than that.
I'm not really happy.

Nerves.

Well it's about 1AM, and I have to go pick up Mandi (my border collie) from my dad's house in klamath tomorrow, or i guess, today. I don't want to, but my dad's neighbors are assholes, and Mandi barking like twice at night is 'annoying, and they're going to file a complaint'. Fucking assholes. They say something to me and I'll fucking tear into each of them. >_>

I can't wait for Wednesday. I get to go to the doctor and *hopefully* find out how far along I really am. Me and Ty were talking, and the conception date they gave us really doesn't work. haha.
I had the weirdest dream, that I was in labor and I went to the doctor, and I needed a c-section, but the doctor wouldn't do it for some reason, so Ty left to go to starbucks. O_o
Weird dream. That's for sure.

My puppy went pee outside today. For once. Stupid dog doesn't learn that peeing on the floor = pain and being locked outside with no fun. I don't get it.

Idk.
I'm getting more excited for baby. I can't wait until I can actually feel it move and whatnot. Right now it's just lame cause I can't do anything fun and I get sick. lol

I don't want Ty to go to basic training/techschool/w/e.

I'm done.

Just stuff.

Well, right now I'm 6 weeks, 6 days. I'm starting to put on a little chunk, I think mostly because I find it necessary to binge eat constantly. Thank god for my fast metabolism, or else I'd have gained like 20 pounds already.
My boobs got bigger though. So that's good. They look awesome.
Prenatal vitamins are HUGE. I feel like I'm swallowing a fucking horse pill or something. haha.
And so far, my morning sickness hasn't been bad at all. I've only puked a couple times, and my nausea isn't too bad. Go me! I'm SUPER hormonal though. I snap so easy.


Well we've given the roomate his notice, which means I get a room to nest in soon. I found an awesome website www.beyond-bedding.com
they have tons of cute baby stuff on sale. I really hope its on sale again in like 5 months when I know what I'm having.
Here's my favorites though.

For a boy, the dino set, of course. Only $180 including shipping for everything but the actual furniture. Which I didn't really like anyways.




























And for girls, I like the zebra print! This one is $160.



























Also speaking of genders, me and Ty have kinda been discussing names. So far, we like Zaneta and Ashe (yeah yeah, nerds) for girls. And I like Braxley/Braxlen for a boy, but Ty doesn't like those boy names. :/

I go to the doctor on the 19th. Hopefully I'll get an ultrasound. I kinda doubt it though. haha. I've heard you don't get one until 12 weeks unless you have issues before then. Maybe I'll make up some issues. I want to see my blob! :(

But yeah, for people that don't go check every week for what's going on during that week of pregnancy (which I'd hope is most of you?) during week 6, which I'm technically in still, but only until tomorrow, baby is 4-6mm crown to rump, and limbs start forming, and so are the beginnings of most of the organs, and the inner ear. The heart is beating, and circulation is pretty much formed. My placenta is also starting to form.
Week seven, which starts tomorrow, the baby is usually about 7-9mm crown to rump. It's hand plates form, but no fingers yet. Also it's second set of kidneys forms.

Anyways that's all for now.

One.

Well, I'm not really sure exactly what to put here. I'd been blogging in the myspace diary about my pregnancy, but I guess I wouldn't mind people knowing some of what I'm thinking. And Kayleen said this was a good place. hehe.

Anyways.
I'm pregnant.
5 weeks. 2 days. Well, that's the best guess they have right now.
I'm scared shitless, really. I want key lime pie and sleep all the time. I think it's a boy, even though I reallllly want a girl. I have these weird mini-cramps, which the doctor says is normal. Worries me though, but I'm paranoid so it's okay. My boobs hurt.

According to the internet, his/her heart starts beating this week and the vocal chords are forming, as well as the major organs like the liver, and brain. Especially the brain. It's about 4-6mm in length and weighs about as much as 4 small paper clips. According to pictures it looks kinda like a squid. :/


But yeah, there's not too much to say right now. I'm still in shock, so it's not really feeling too real yet.

Ah anyways, I'll leave you all alone now.